::..im giving up.. :

"..Sometimes, it's eaiser to pretend you don't care then to admitt it's killling you.."
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but its enough now.
FULLSTOP.~!!
as i sat here i was trying to think of all the times you hurt me and made me cry. 
hoping and wishing it would make me like you less.
But it didn't. 

because all the times i could remember were the ones when you showed me that you cared. 
 but there are times when i cant decide whether to see you or not. 
i want to see you because i miss you but there are times when i dont want to see you.
because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that i see you hurts me even more.
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kita melemparkan kemarahan walaupun terhadap orang yang paling kita sayang. 
dan akibatnya adalah penyesalan dalam diri. 
seringkali penyesalan itu datang di kemudiannya, tapi ketika itu semuanya sudah terlambat.
dan kerana itu,jagalah dan sayangilah orang yang kita sayang dengan sepenuh hati.
jika kita rasa ia menyinggung perasaan mereka, sebaiknya jangan dilafazkan. 
kerana semakin besar risiko untuk kehilangan orang yang kita sayangi.
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As we grow up.
we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. 
You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts.
you'll cry because time is flying by.  
and i've learned that things change, people change.
and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. 
It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. 
Letting go doesn't mean giving up. 
it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.
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::..i like to pretend that everything's alright..::
::..because when everybody else thinks you're fine..::
::..sometimes you forget for a while that you're not..::
 ::..so,when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry..::
::..show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile..::


~...rozy...~

::kebusanan::

::..salam..::

dah lama rasa nya tak berblog.
maklumlah,bulan nie tersangatlah sibuk dengan training yang sudah berminggu-minggu lamanya.saya sampai dah terasa jemu untuk meneruskan latihan lagi. 
mana tidaknya,pagi,petang,siang,malam, kalau boleh setiap mase nak training.
badan saya pun dah terasa letih yang teramat dah nie.
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"...tolonggglah saya..."
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saya dah tak larat lagi dah nie.!,ape lah nasib saya nie kan.
walau ape skekali pun,nak atau tidak,saya terpaksa lah jugak teruskan usaha.. 
memandangkan game sudah semakin hampir.
harap2 saya dapat teruskan dengan jayanya..

counting days left.............

~rozyridwan~

".te quiero."

"....la medida del amor es amar sin medida...."

::..te quiero..::
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I don't need anyone to take advantage of my weaknesses or my strengths..i just need someone who will appreciate me for everything that I am.
and it is you!
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no matter how many times I try and move on before.. my heart always takes me back here to you..
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::sangat merindui kamu::

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 ..in dreams and in love there are no impossibilities..

rozyridwan1217

::p.e.r.t.e.m.u.a.n::

"...memory is a way of holding on to the things that you love...the things you are and the things you never want to lose....."
 
 
k.a.m.u
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kita sudah lama kenal
sejak beberapa tahun yang lalu
bagi saya
kamu sangat ambil berat tentang diri saya
even kadang2 tu saya selalu sahaja sakitkan hati kamu
saya nak ucapkan terima kasih untuk segalanya
 
~..s.A.y.a.N.g.K.a.m.U..~
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 Alhamdulillah
sekarang pun kamu masih lagi ada dengan saya
saya berharap kamu tidak akan pergi untuk terakhir kali
 
dan setelah semua yang sudah saya lalui
 i admit
saya hanya mahu kamu
just u
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:: when i say i love you ::
:: im not just saying it because we are together ::
:: im saying it because i want to be together forever ::
:: and if you dont believe me ::
:: when i say i love you ::
:: look in my eyes and you will know its true ::


"...aku rindu setengah mati kepadamu...sungguh kuingin kau tahu.."

rozyridwan12apr2011
 
 



::..k.a.m.u..::

::..dulu,kita pernah berkawan..::
::..rasa kuat sangat2 ikatan persahabatan kita..::
::..tapi lepas daripada itu,semuanya dah mula hilang..::
::..masing2 dah buat haluan sendiri.:: 
::..tapi,sejak akhir2 nie sy selalu teringat pada kamu.::   
::..mungkin betul kata orang..::  
::..saya sedang rindu kamu..::
.
"..if you cant get someone off your mind they are probably supposed to be there.."   
 
::.i.m.y.s.m.::

::..im the one..::

Yes, I know you are wanted by many..
but just think about it...
you know I'll always be the one who loved you more..
I'll always be the one who was there for you always..
and I'll always be the one you feel the most comfortable with..
but I can promise you this... 
I won't always be the one who waited their whole life..
to try and make you realize it..
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".Our tears are what happens when it rains deep inside our hearts..
and we cannot hold the rain any longer.
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::sgt sayang kamu:: 
:101210:

~.s.i.l.e.n.t.ly.~

::..I really could not hurt you..::
::..but I have reasons of my own fault..::
::..I will not talk much anymore..::

kalaulah kamu tahu..
Orang yang menyanyangi kamu akan selalu mengingati setiap kata-kata yang kamu ucapkan.. 
bahkan mungkin kata-kata yang kamu sendiri lupa..
    bahawa kamu pernah mengungkapkannya suatu ketika dulu.. 
kerana dia menyematkan setiap kata-kata mu di hatinya..
telah berapa banyak kata-kata harapan yang kamu tuturkan pada dia..
dan akhirnya kamu musnahkan?? 
pastinya kamu lupa tentang itu..
tetapi bukan orang yang menyayangi kamu.

::..A.K.U..::

~rozy271110~

perasaan ini~

setiap hari aku merasakan benda yg same..(+_+),,
kadang2 rase mcm diri aku ni tah pape tah..
sebabnye aku terlalu mengharapkan benda yg x akan berlaku walau sekalipun..
bodoh sgt aku nihh kan..yang teramat..~
setiap kali aku cube utk wat xtahu akan perkara sebenar..
setiap kali itulah,,ia makin bermain dalam kepala otak aku nie..
menci betul lah!
nak aku luahkan,,rase macam da xguna lagi..
"coz seems like i've already told it so many times."
 yg pastinya aku xpernah suke akan itu..
dan itu perasaan aku..


even aku ade perasaan itu..
kau xperlu risaukan aku..
kerna aku masih mampu bertahan selagi kau perlukan aku..

~rozyridwan311010~

~y.o.u~

I miss you when something really good happens, 
because you are the one I want to share it with..
I miss you when something is troubling me, 
because you are the one who understands me so well..
I miss you when I laugh and cry,,
because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow..
and my tears disappear..
I miss you all the time,,
but I miss you most when i lay awake at night..
and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other...


for those were some of the best times of my life .

~~rozyridwan251010~~

h.o.n.e.s.t.l.y~

Honestly, I dont even know what really happened..
When i think about it,, 
all i remember is that i tried and i tried really hard..
But u didnt seem happy anymore no matter how hard i tried..
So i called it quits..
All i have ever wanted is ur mesmerizing smile lighting up my life..
And i was just not able to feel that..
Sorry, if ever i have hurt you..
But the only thing that i wish for now is ur happiness..
If ever you realize that ur happiness is with me then ur always w.e.l.c.o.m.e..
I am and i will always be here for u..
But even if u happen to find it somewhere else,,
rest assured I'll be the happiest for u..
Love you..


~~rozyridwan 251010~~

~for y.o.u~

There are so many things I wish I could tell you,, but I can't..
I'm not sure if you would ever understand because,,
I don't understand half of it..
I want to be with you so bad,,
but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that,, 
I end up getting hurt more.. 
I can sit here and say that I don't care about you..
and that I'm not going to let you hurt me,,
and just by saying that I know that you can and have..
It’s not your fault, it never is. Its me.. 



~~rozyridwan20102010~~

let you go~

it hurt to love someone and not to be love in return,,
but what is more painful is,,
to love someone and,,
we never find the courage to let,,
the person know how we feel,,(+_+),,
you know what,,
the sad things in life is,,
when you meet someone who means a lot to you,,
and only find out in the end that it was,,
never meant to be and you just have to let it go....
now i had realized that i cant do anythings more,,
and now seems like i am give up...
giving up does'nt always mean i am weak,,
but sometimes it means that i am strong enough to let you go....
i cant make ou love me, want me, or understand me,,
all i can do is hope that someday you will..(+_+),,
hopefully...

"..maybe i have to go for the ones who can make me smile to hide all the tears,,
and because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.."

aku ingin lari~

Why are you so sad..
And why is it so sad..
When some one leaves you behind..

Won't you ever know..
Don't you realize.. 
It's just a part of life..  
When you love.. 
With some one some time.. 
It's smile with a broken heart..



Untuk apa aku disini lagi..
aku ingin lari..
jauh..jauh..
kerna hati aku ingin lari..
apa nak difikirkan lagi..
kata hati kau lari..lari..
Namun dari sudut kecil..
hati aku berbicara..
jangan kau lari..
kerna makin jauh kau lari hanya penat kau dapat..
usah kau lari..

jadi,aku harus bangun dan bukan untuk lari jauh..
tapi untuk lari mendapatkan..
KEREDHAAN ILAHI..
agar hidup aku lebih bererti..

rozyridwan051010~~

hurt~

Seringkali hati kecilku ini mengadu sakit,,
Dan seringkali juga jiwa ini meratap hiba dan sepi..(T_T),
Dengan semua dugaan dan ujian yang datang bertimpa-timpa ke atas diri ini, 
Kadangkala,, ia telahpun menewaskan semangatku yang telah sedia ada..
Kadang-kadang,, aku berasa seperti keseorangan,
Dan terasa betapa diri ini dipinggirkan..
Ketika ini,, aku menyangka sudah tidak ada apa lagi yang bernilai dalam kehidupan,,
Dan yang aku lihat hanyalah jalan suram di hadapan..
Namun begitu,,sehingga ke saat ini aku masih lagi mencuba untuk bertahan,,
Walaupun aku rasa aku sudah tidak mampu untuk menempuhinya seorang diri..
Jika dengan cara ini dapat membahagiakan dia,, aku rela..

Ya Allah,, kau berikanlah kekuatan kepada diriku utk meneruskan kehidupan ini,,
Dan kau kuatkanlah semangatku agar aku dapat mengharungi hari2 kelak..
(+_+)..~~
Aku redha dengan semua ketentuan ALLAH untukku..
~~rozyridwan03102010~~

::..selalu salah..::

..Dulu memang kita saling bersama..
..Ku mengira tulus dalam kata..

..Tapi kini kamu memang berbeda..
..Ku terluka untuk selamanya..

..Caramu yang membuat diriku jauh..
..Kecewa di dalam hatiku..

~rozyridwan260910~